Tuesday, 16 January 2018

''I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE, A FEW TIMES...''


Ok, I really need to stop starting blog posts with HEY LONG TIME NO SPEAK but hey long time no speak? I really have sucked at this whole blogging thing over the last year and if anyone is still reading this then the biggest thank you goes to you.

Last week my blog turned 8, eight flippin' years. I was at university when I started this blog and next year it'll be 10 years since I started that degree. Seriously where does the time go? This blog has grown with me. It's documented said degree, relationships, friendships, adventures, happy and sad times, life goals, a whole load of shopping trips and so many amazing opportunities I wouldn't even know where to start sharing them. I am very lucky and fortunate that's for sure!



But 2017 was a year I really struggled with my blog. I've mentioned this before, but over the past couple of years I've very much felt like a little fish in a big pond. I can't compete with the big influencers. I don't have the look nor the niche nor the big ideas to catapult me. I guess I felt like I really didn't bring anything to the table so what was the point? I'd put that much pressure on myself that it was just daunting even the idea of opening my laptop so I buried my head in the sand and ignored it and my inbox (not to self: don't do that again). So at the start of the year I asked on Twitter whether to carry on blogging or not and the response was overwhelming, the tweets and emails I received made my heart swell. 89% of you said to keep this going and well, that's enough for me.



2017 wasn't a great year for me professionally either, I went from a really amazing job to try and progress my career to being made redundant within 3 months. If it didn't make me sound really unprofessional I'd do a whole blog post on the disgusting (very well known UK brand) which treated me appallingly. For 4 months I struggled with my identity and what I wanted to do with my life. But since then I'm now doing a completely different job with a really big opportunity to progress which is amazing. It's also in my local town so no more hour commutes up and down the M1 5 days a week.. hurrah!

So I've decided this year to focus on myself. I don't know if turning 30 next year has anything to do with it, but I feel very much like this is going to be my year (hello cliché) and I need to to continue to be happy in my life and on my blog. I will write I want, when I want, without any pressure on myself or pressure to create incredible content. Sometimes I find the unplanned and raw posts actually make the best posts to read so that's my focus. I basically need to care less in a lot of areas of my life. Although I'll still be dipping in to beauty and fashion (my eBay posts will be staying) I want to do a lot of random posts too. As a soon to be 29 year old woman, I feel like I have a life posts to share and maybe take this blog in another direction, I'm not a 21 uni student any more, man those days are long gone. I feel like old school blogging is going to make a comeback too and I am SO ready for that...



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  1. I definitely have felt like a little fish in a big pond in the blogging industry - it's impossible to compete. I'm just enjoying blogging for myself, and focusing on myself in the process! xx

    Jessie | allthingsbeautiful-x

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  2. Girl, I totally feel you. I've upset myself a few times in the last 2 years with regret for not being 'bigger' when the others in our little group have done amazingly well for themselves! But hey, I chose to prioritise other things when the catalysing factor kicked in for the blog industry, and that's something I'll have to live with. So happy to have you back my love <3

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  3. So glad to see you back.
    Obviously, at the end of the day this is your space and is ultimately your decision.
    The break and comeback could see a whole new direction for you and I look forward to seeing what happens with your little space. :)

    Caroline.x
    www.carolineelgeywhite.com

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