This is something I’ve wanted to write for a really long time, but I always stopped myself and thought no, you’re giving them exactly what they want. But as I’m sat here, literally about to cry, I think now has come the time to address this from my point of view.
I’m talking about appearance hate.
For a long time, years in fact, I’ve received hate. I know I’m not the first blogger to receive nasty comments and unfortunately I won’t be the last. It could be anything from a rude comment on a blog post, a back handed tweet or just a plain and simple ‘I hate you’ formspring comment. At first they would bother me, I’d question myself and not want to blog anymore, but of course, after a while you do get ‘used to it’ and you find it funny. You laugh it off. You carry on.
But when they start to pick on things and make a joke about something that’s really personal to you, that’s when it starts to get to a whole new level. It’s not funny anymore, it’s damn right painful to read.
Over the past few months the hate I’ve been receiving about my weight has increased. At first it was just typical comments about what size I am, what do I eat etc etc but then they slowly started turning in to pure venom to a point where I would read it and not actually believe what I was reading. There’s been a lot of comments I’ve received which I haven’t included in the image at the top because well, they’re just too spiteful. But I’m pretty sure you can get an idea.
The first thing you’ll say is ignore it. In a perfect world that would be the best thing to do. But believe me, when you’re getting X amounts of comments daily, some will hit a nerve and some will gain a reaction. I’m only human, I feel the need to stick up for myself, just like you would in the same situation. By doing this I bring attention to it, I encourage more hate but you just think to yourself, if someone said something about the thing you hate most ,how easy would you find it to ignore?
The next thing you’ll say is take anon off. Isn’t that a lovely thought? But what about the genuine people, who are too shy to ask something? Or are too embarrassed using their real name? I like helping people out, I love answering their beauty/fashion questions and I love finding items they’ve been looking for the most. So why should I take that away because of someone who doesn’t play nice?
But unfortunately that time has come, for a little while anyway.
The comments I have received about my weight have upset me a lot, there I’ve said it. Every time I’ve read something about an outfit I’ve worn or how overweight I look it honestly makes me want to delete the picture there and then. It has also made me want to take a break from outfit posts. Something which I’m probably going to do now. I even filmed a video today, but after getting the last comment in the pic, i thought why the hell should i?
If I was a bitch I would welcome the hate, but all I do is blog. I’m not nasty, or rude, all I do is post outfit pics, beauty reviews and a post filled with designer inspired items you’ve asked me to find. What do I do to gain so much hate about how I look? And you know what the worst thing is, these people follow me. They’ve probably tweeted me, they’ve probably left me a lovely comment on m blog and they’re probably reading this now.
I’m not writing this for attention, I don’t want you to ‘feel sorry’ for me or tell me ‘oh it’s just jealousy’ and I certainly don’t want the anons to feel like they’ve ‘won’ but i needed to address this. I wanted to show you the kind of abuse I receive on a daily basis and how much hate ONE person can receive in such a short amount of time, just for having a blog.
I would also like to apologize for every time I’ve tweeted/posted on tumblr a reply to rude ask I’ve been sent. I know it can be annoying and I know I’ve probably lost a lot of followers from it. I’m sure I will from this too. But I just hope most of you understand where I’m coming from and know how important this post is to me.
My final message would be to those who have replied to my hate with dignity, love and support. Without you guys I think I would have given up blogging a long time ago, so I thank you for that. I will be blogging this week, but it certainly won’t be from a personal point of view. This has all knocked my confidence sideaways and I need some time to sort all that out. I hope you understand.
Big love to my genuine readers, and massive fuck you to the haters.
This is the first and last time you will ever be on my blog.